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up early and on to the hearing aid test. have slight/moderate hearing loss in left ear and have an appt. in july to discuss a hearing aid. i am not vain about having one. i am tired of not being able to hear people and asking them over and over again to repeat themselves. the damage is in the cochlea in the inner ear.

put the boston butt on the smoker before i went to the appt., came back and then out again at 12:30 to see sue fuller. i had a good session, although i was very agitated before i got there. dave hacker called and hadn't heard from austin about playing baseball this weekend at the beach. so we went round and round about getting him to leave early, had finally gotten it all worked out over the course of the day...and then austin got a phone call from karl kuhn stating that he was not to play any baseball this summer. so tonight, after a topsy turvy day of going back and forth over getting him to leave, we now have another upside down situation...no baseball, no tourneys anymore, no atlanta, no charleston. kuhn wants him doing yoga and weight lifting and getting himself and his arm in shape. no ifs, ands, or buts...

gregg has been sick all week, so dinner was postponed. i took half of the bbq and cooked it down using mamama's recipe. tomorrow i will do the rest of it using the gus red recipe. i went to the store today and got the stuff to make cole slaw using the KFC recipe. i was sort of relieved that i didn't have to rush to get the house cleaned or food made. the arguing and angst over the phone gave me a headache, so i ended up taking some tylenol and a nap.

the temps here today were upwards of 103 and with the heat index, even higher. i tried to sit out on the deck under the umbrella and read some of a magazine, but i only lasted about 15/20 minutes. i didn't get anything done off the honey do list today, and i wish i had. sort of feel like i have wasted the day. but my back is bothering me and i have a lot of overall pain and felt sort of listless today. i did clean up the pile of mess in the SF room, but beyond that, nothing significant. i watched a new show tonight called BOSTON MED which is a documentary show about 3 hospitals in boston.

the check engine light went off of the car today...so i am hoping that it was a fluke and there are no problems. i have an 8:15 appt. with the chiro in the morning and i hope to come home and do some things around the house. need to water the plants early. it looked like we were going to have a thunderstorm, but it passed us by with very little rain. we need the rain. haven't had any in well over 10 days...

austin called me back early this evening and he was drunk. he didn't sound drunk, but he told me he was. it was a very weird experience and i am not sure how to react to any of it. he told me that someone had shotgunned him with pot on monday. i was totally disgusted with this and he was remorseful, but swore that he would not be doing anything like this when he got home. he said it was the one time in his life that he would be able to hang out with his friends and party and be wild. i hope that it will be over when he comes back. i still worry. i didn't really worry all that much this week, but there have been stressful moments off and on. haven't talked to him much, only when i had to.